The 6/2 profile: coming off the roof
I remember the first time I heard about the three stages of a 6 profile.
This story plays out in the year 1999 when Ra introduced the concept of profile.
Ra had asked me to transcribe what he was recording about profiles. I loved doing this because the information was incredible and I had never heard it before. I was just beginning the last profiles – the 6/2 and the 6/3. I was excited to be getting to my own profile – the 6/2 – as well as getting close to completing the project.
It was nighttime when I got to the 6/2 and it was a few months to my Chiron (Kiron) Return. I knew the date as Ra had talked about the importance of Chiron as the final life cycle theme following the Saturn Return and the Uranus Opposition. But I never heard about the Chiron and what exactly it meant for a 6 profile. I remember it so well – sitting at my desk with my headphones on and my foot pedal on the floor being able to go back over the sentence until I got it all down.
I was listening intently and typing and all I could do was cry as I typed. To listen to Ra explain the three stages of my life as a 6/2 was incredible. For me to hear about my first two stages was like a release from so many painful memories that I had misunderstood and misidentified while living those stages.
“Hearing about my first two stages was like a release from so many painful memories that I had misunderstood and misidentified while living those stages.”
It was as if Ra was a fly on the wall, it was like he had been there, watching what I lived through. Oh, not the exact details – but the themes that were there.
When I got to the third stage of a 6/2’s life, in the silence of the room with my husband working quietly at his desk behind me - the keyboard clicking away as the only sound in the room – I let out a big scream saying loudly “NO! I am not coming down from the roof!” I was terrified to even think of getting involved in life again. On the roof I was aloof, uninvolved and most importantly, safe.
“I let out a big scream saying loudly “NO! I am not coming down from the roof!” I was terrified to even think of getting involved in life again.”
I knew nothing could ever make me want to risk living a life that was even remotely similar to the first thirty years of my life. It took forever to transcribe the 6/2. I had to keep stopping and sob what I thought was my ill-suited fate. I was a mess. I was scared and I felt very very vulnerable.
As an experiential being (Sun gate in 41), I never understand anything while I am going through it. No matter how intense or painful – there is nothing in me that knows in the moment what is happening to me. All I can ever do is hold on and hope I survive. It is only when I come out the other side of the experience that any understanding is possible.
I remember seeing Ra the next day to give him the diskette with the transcript on it and telling him how terrified I was. What he said helped to relieve my anxiety. He said that it would not be like my first thirty years and that it would be totally different because I will be coming off the roof as myself.
“He said that it would not be like my first thirty years and that it would be totally different because I will be coming off the roof as myself.”
I reflected on this and realized that I did have a strong base to stand on now even if I did get totally involved in the world again. I looked back on my childhood and the pain of not understanding that all the emotions I was taking in were my father's, my sister's and of one of my brother's. I saw that the deep mental anxiety of always feeling like I did not know and it seemed like everyone else did, that this came from having an open Head Center and Ajna Center. I understood why I always felt so vulnerable and unprotected - that there was no Ego Center to "defend" me.
I saw that one of the biggest reasons that I had such an intense and painful life was because I could not say "yes" or "no" and feel secure in it. I always doubted myself and could so easily be made to feel stupid, guilty or ashamed. In looking at my past objectively, I saw so clearly that this simply could not happen again because I was now standing in myself. I relaxed deeply and secretly started getting excited about my Chiron return.
I thought back on how so many of my friends tried to convince me to have a big party for my 50th birthday, but my sacral kept responding "unun".
I would say "there doesn’t feel like there is anything to celebrate." I turned 50 in January 1999. It passed uneventfully. I then transcribed the profile tapes for Ra in the summer of 1999. My Chiron return was in November 1999. What perfect timing! I was so grateful to have understood the process of a 6 profile in time before I was "pulled" by existence off my cozy and safe roof.
Because as a 6 profile, it is not like there is a choice after Chiron. The truth is a 6 profile comes down off the roof, whether they like it or not. And if they don’t understand their own process about the three stages of the 6 profile as well as their strategy and their authority, they will have an extremely uncomfortable experience because it will be just as painful and confusing as their first thirty years. It is so important for 6 profiles to understand – as early as possible – the stages of their life.
“If people don’t understand the three stages of the 6 profile as well as their strategy and their authority, they will have an extremely uncomfortable experience because it will be just as painful and confusing as their first thirty years.”
With understanding my own process, I now felt like I really had something to celebrate. I had never given myself a party before - never had a birthday party when I was a child or a big wedding. But for this, I really wanted to go all out. It felt like I was truly celebrating a whole new beginning and I was very excited wondering what life had in store for me rather than being terrified!
I organized a big party complete with a live band. I had a wonderful restaurant do the catering and I asked a friend to decorate. I went through the list of everyone I knew. I let my sacral respond to each name "ahunh" or "unun". It was quite a process to watch. I was amazed at some of the people that I went "ahunh" to, because I knew they didn't even like me! But I honored my sacral and invited them anyway. And there were a few people that I liked that I went "unun" to. It was really something to witness the whole unfolding!
“I was amazed at some of the people that I went “ahunh” to, because I knew they didn’t even like me! But I honored my sacral and invited them anyway.”
It was a great party and once the band understood that I really did not want to be the focus of all the attention (a horrible thing for the 2 part of my profile), I was able to relax and really have fun. It was like announcing to the world “I’m ready” and “waiting”.
Understanding my profile had a profound effect on me. I was able to make sense of so many things that disturbed me. And it helped me so much to truly celebrate coming off the roof. And I must say that life has been incredible since my Chiron return. I never thought I could live life like this - to be once again so totally involved and not afraid.
