Slow is sexy (even for splenic beings)
I was so impatient in the beginning.
I wanted everything to happen NOW! I didn’t want to wait for anything. I was always in such a hurry.I remember the early years – they make me smile now. I had some opportunities to be with Ra and just talk. I remember telling him how I couldn’t believe why this information wasn’t taking the world by storm. It was the most incredible thing I had ever come across. Why wasn’t it moving like wildfire rather than like water over stone?
This morning in the office . . . responding to something being said in a conversation – the strangest words started coming out of my mouth. I was actually talking about how important it was for transformation to move slowly. That I was really glad that it takes seven years for the cellular change to happen. That we need that time to adjust to the changes that are taking place so that we actually survive. I understand now that SLOW does not destroy. I never knew that before.
Being a splenic person, everything for me is about the now. What I wanted – I wanted now. I realized this morning how intelligent nature is in having us go through seven-year cycles. In having our cells change every seven years.
“It’s so important for transformation to move slowly. We need that time to adjust to the changes that are taking place so that we actually survive.”
In the same breath, I realized that if transformation happens too quickly – if mutation happens without time to really digest and absorb what has happened – survival would be at risk. If something happens too quickly, the chances of it being destroyed are greater.
I remember Ra talking about how it would take hundreds of years for Human Design to really reach critical mass. I remember thinking – oh god - there must be something we can do to speed it up. Now I see the perfection of this slow timing – the perfection of things moving slowly and surviving.
There are so many fads in America. One day it is this – the next day that. They are quick – in and out like a flash. They don’t survive. They simple bring a costume change – an outer change and then are gone.
It is taking every second of me living as a sacral being to actually be rooted in me. It is not a mental concept. If it was, I would have simply been able to believe it and think myself changed. No, it works on the cellular level – it is basically a rewiring of our information system within. I can’t do that myself. And there is no one who could come in, like a mystical electrician, and do that for me. What has brought about this cellular change – this new way of living ‘me’ is my strategy.
“It is taking every second of me living as a sacral being to actually be rooted in me. It is not a mental concept. If it was, I would have simply been able to believe it and think myself changed.”
Man – it begins to sound like a broken record. Live your strategy – live your strategy – live your strategy. But it is really true. If you live your strategy, you will see. I know that I talk all the time about how incredible it is to wait to respond. I have many friends who are not Generators who say, “Yea for you it is so easy”.
Well – yes, in one sense that is true. It is easy to make sounds and honor them once you get the hang of it. BUT – and that is a really bit but (no pun intended) it was DAMN HARD not to initiate anymore. I am an energy being. I am used to using my energy. For over 47 years I acted like a Manifestor. Through conditioning, I was wired to initiate – make things happen. But I was born to RESPOND!
Man – that was like trying to rein in a wild stallion. So I think that the initial living of the strategy – the waiting (which is for over 92% of the planet the first part of their strategy), this is hard for ALL of US! Well, maybe not reflectors. I have one reflector friend who was the only person who just beamed when I told him he had to wait 28 days. He got the relief of that immediately. But a Projector? Wait to be invited? Wait to be recognized? Well – that is damn hard.
What I am beginning to see though – that it is the actual process of waiting that does so much on the cellular level
Not necessarily what comes from the waiting. Oh yes, I love what I am doing now – I am thrilled with it – there is so much joy inside of me. Yet, before this came – I was in a deep waiting period – over 5 years! Not that I wasn’t doing anything – but I didn’t really have something to put that ‘wild stallion’ energy into.
That WAITING – was the slow burn of the old. That WAITING was the slow imprinting of the new. It is the waiting for ‘waiting types’ that is the groundwork for the transformation. And it is not going to be a mental change of thinking. It is going to be a total change of who you think you are – into who you really are. If that would have happened overnight, I doubt I would have survived. I doubt I would have been able to make it through such an intense and total metamorphosis if it was instantaneous.
“That WAITING – was the slow burn of the old. That WAITING was the slow imprinting of the new. It is the waiting for ‘waiting types’ that is the groundwork for the transformation.”
No, it needs time. I cannot believe I am saying this. I am a New Yorker by birth – New Yorkers are notorious for being impatient about everything. Well – it surprises me too! This waiting – not for something in particular – not to have your desires fulfilled or anything – just simply to wait because that is the key to unlock the door to your true self. And then see. It is a slow - slow - SLOW process. It is not instant. It does take every drop of those seven years.
It does get easier after the first year. That is the most difficult time. And after the 3.5 mark, you feel like you are gliding in the experiment. Yet, I am about 5.5 years into my experiment. And each month, I can feel subtle changes inside of me. Not dramatic – not obvious, like in the early months and years. Subtle – very subtle, yet they are happening just the same. It is more like a fine-tuning is happening now.
“It does get easier after the first year. That is the most difficult time. And after the 3.5 years mark, you feel like you are gliding in the experiment.”
These seven years – they can seem like SO LONG at the beginning. Yet, it is truly the slow – the moment by moment living of our strategy – that transforms us. It is a slow transformation. It is not instant. I used to hate that. I wanted it to happen now. I didn’t want to wait. But now I really see the beauty in this slow process. For it is truly in me now deeply. I it is ‘me’ that is living me. Not my mind thinking I am this or that. I am truly living me – moment by moment in response. It IS cellular and it is quite a miracle.
It is truly the slow – the moment by moment living of our strategy – that transforms us.
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